my journey to being thin(ner)

i wish i could bottle up how i feel after a good workout so on days that i don’t feel like doing anything, i can take a whiff and feel instantly energized… i hate myself for not doing my pilates this morning so now i have to do it when i get home… not like its a huge deal or anything but its beautiful outside and i feel guilty for not going for a walk instead… then again, its only april 10 and spring has just started so there will plenty of days where i can go for walks…

i was really enjoying the am/pm walks with eric and rusty but i’m not sure how much longer that will last… i brought max over to his house yesterday for another *test* and it didn’t go so well - max ran into the bedroom and assumed position under the covers… apparently rusty didn’t do so well at the dogpark either so he’s really beginning to realize that he might not be the right dog for our family… and it doesn’t help that the shelter hasn’t called to see how things were going - i just think that’s wrong esp. when you’ve taken their dog, into your house, for fostering… anyway, eric still has a week and is going to see how things go but i would say its pretty muc 75/25 at this point - he is so depressed and heart broken over all this and feels that he has failed… i told him that we can’t hate rusty for being the way he is and that he’s had a pretty good few weeks, that’s more than some animals get in their whole lifetime… who would’ve thought getting a dog would be so traumatic! ugh!

have a good night…